Sad Day.. Rest In Peace Lucy...

Over the weekend Lucy took a turn for the worst. I am not really sure what happened but she yelled out in pain all weekend. I tried to control her pain with medication but it didn't do much. I had to make the call this morning to put her down. It is the most difficult thing to do. I have only had to do this one other time with my cat of 18 years. That time was even worse... I kept praying that God wouldn't make me make the choice to do it... I couldn't bare to see her in pain. I just felt so helpless when she would cry out in pain... I know it was the right thing to do.. sometimes the right thing is not easy. Dinner time tonight was odd.. no more little begger. In some respects I feel relief, one less to take care of and deal with her funny corks. I know that probably sounds heartless, but it is how I feel. I will miss her terribly and am glad she is no longer in pain.

Valentines Day!

Can't say the day excites me since it crept up on me due to being "shut in" for 10 days! I was up all night with Lucy my beagle. I think she is in serious pain in her back or something. Gave her pain meds from her back injury a year ago. It doesn't seem to touch it. I am sick inside because I believe she has had a good long 10 years, but her health has been deteriorating for sometime now. I just wish God would "take her" and not make me do it. I can't stand to see her in pain though. Early this morning I took the dogs out sliding on the ice to hear that we were out of feed in House #2. Called the feed mill and they said they will be out as soon as they can. Cleaned out two more drawers in my room today. Purging feels good. Cleaned out Feed Bin #2 before the feed truck came, it was crusted over with wet feed. Dreading tomorrow. Need to fix feed line cables in the houses before Thursday. (Chickens possibly go out). Take Lucy to the vet and D.U. is suppose to go to the Chiropractor and water therapy. Too much. Valentines Day will have to wait till next weekend. Probably not gonna have chickens next weekend and hopefully no more snow... maybe a date night to the movies and dinner... I'd like to make a simple date and go to Panera Bread for lunch. Chick Flick too! I might have to compromise.

We survived the wild weather again!

Its 7:00 pm Thursday evening and I marvel at how different the last two evenings have been. I guess the snow hasn't been all that bad. I'm sitting snuggled next two Brittanie on the sofa as she reads out loud to me about Richard Paul Evans and how he became an author. Humorous and annoying at the same time. I am trying to write on my blog and she keeps interrupting me with her new excitement over the book! The boys are playing Risk again. Jay beat the pants off of the boys yesterday, we will see how this game will end. The dogs are snoring, all three of them. I had a thought about this blog. I don't really want it to be a self centered thing. I want it to contribute in some way. I always had a journal. I think the reason I have done this my whole adult life is so that when I leave this life my kids and husband would have a part of me forever. I also think its nice to go back and read your entries to see how much things have changed for the better or worse. So I am not sure how this will evolve but I am thinking that as I write down my memories and stories of this farm you will send me your stories that intertwine with mine. For example... I wrote about my pigs and two of my friends on Facebook have similar stories. Write them here, maybe one day I will write a book and put your stories in my book! Who knows.. I do know one thing... Hearing from others who have lived my life ... I find comfort in that. It is hard sometimes to get people to understand where I am coming from sometimes because they haven't lived this kind of life. It is very different. So different at times I miss my old life... ok I miss my old life aloT! But I feel better knowing that there are others that know what I and my family go through sometimes. So please elaborate here! I would love to hear from you.

Accomplished reading a book!

I guess there is something good to be said about the snow. There was little to do but pace and look out the snow covered window at the chicken houses, to see if the weight of the snow had given way to our roofs. So I pulled one of the 10 books by Richard Paul Evans collection off my book shelf. Many thanks to my mother who started the collection back in 2002. I have only read four of them and today I read my fifth! The whole book. A sense of accomplishment and disappointment came over me as I finish the book. Obviously I don't get much time to read so losing myself in a book was quite satisfying. The men of the house are playing risk as D.U. sleeps between Jay and JJ on the sofa. Its nice to see TJ (my future son-in-law) engaging in a good game of Risk. The fire cracks and the wind whips. Brittanie started a book as well from Richard Paul Evans. The only on missing is Joy. She jumped at the chance to get snowed in with a friend. My prayers are geared toward the farmers as I understand the uncertainty that lays ahead for all of us as this Nor'easter bears down on the peninsula. Till tomorrow...